things aren't as bad as they USED to be.

so i'm frustrated that i'm not where i COULD be but to look at the bright side of things- at least i'm NOT completely unemployed like i used to be a few months ago. it's not a high paying job yet but at least it keeps me occupied and constructive to HELP others when i'm a receptionist at sabathani. it's a hell of a lot better than i would be if i just waited for amanda to actually help me like my grandma used to always claim she'd do. i got this job because philando's mom valerie networked for me to get the job during the last memorial for philando that i volunteered at. my grandma used to CLAIM amanda claimed that she'd get me a job and living in new york!.. about 10 years later after my grandma's death- i'm STILL unemployed!.. thanks amanda. i can't complain too much because at least i'm occupied at sabathani. volunteering is better than being unemployed completely. you gotta start somewhere in order to get experience. just have to think optimistically and keep in mind that it's getting me work experience which is BETTER than amanda's plans for me to be unemployed and depending on social security while occupied going to courage kenny where they don't acknowledge my TRUE potential and ability while underestimating me and depending on everyone else underestimating me- so i appear more disabled than reality, so they can take advantage of that especially since i don't have advocacy to help me express my TRUE POTENTIAL and ABILITY because it's more convenient for me to depend on other people for help I DON'T NEED than to acknowledge my TRUE POTENTIAL and ABILITY- it also gives her less to talk about with her in-laws so they continue to think i just refuse to go to the courage center because i'm stubborn and clueless. maybe they have the stubborn part right but i'm NOT "clueless" or stupid. thanks. now her in-laws and all her stylist buddies think i'm a stubborn dumbass. you are quite possibly the most ridiculous excuse of an "advocate". just allow people to continue to take advantage of your cousin because she's stupid because she DOES have a TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY!.. jackass.